Friday, May 30, 2014

Would You Marry Me?

This post I wanna talk about wedding.

Oh btw Assalamualaikum ya habibi ya maulana
Last weekend I was attending my cousin's wedding at Bangi Gold Club. Actually I was not helping much for the wedding (actually I was doin' nothing!). Bridal and groom such a very good-looking couple. They have met each other at their workplace, the starting point of their love story. hihii

My cousin is 25 years old get married with a man 29 years old. So good isn't it? Not too young and not too old.
For one glance, the groom looks like our Malaysian actor, Ako Mustapha kan kan? hehee. Everything is just so simple, nice and beautiful.

On that day, I was overexciting and my other cousins and I were camwhoring like crazyhhhh! I haven't been doing this for such a long time. But, actually sometimes we need to try ourselves to be young again hehe

Right after the wedding ceremony, we were visiting auntie's for family gathering. That was such a good memory of us because we had so much fun! The whole house echoed with our laughter hahahahaha.

We reminisce about the old stories of our family. How hard were/are we to build the best living life. I am so proud of my auntie because she is such a strong woman like my mother who is sacrificing almost everything in order to get a better education and knowledge and now all her unstoppable effort is worth it. I will take a really good care of your advice auntie :')


Thursday, May 15, 2014

My Mother


I feel like wanna write on this blog again. Lately, I have so many things I would like to share with you guys. Blogging is like a therapy for me. when we express something which is good or bad, it can help to build our mood or prevent us to be stressed persons.

I wanna share with the world that I have the most amazing mom on this earth! In 1993, my mom gave birth to me when she was 40. I can say her life during that time was like Rozita Che Wan's currently life as Che Ta is going to give birth to Zain's eldest son. hahaha

Giving birth during our 40's is not recommended by doctor. I am actually thinking what was my mom's feeling when it was her first time to give birth at her 40's ? Didn't doctor say anything about the risks? Lucky mum was such a strong person. She gave birth to me and now I am writing this to you guys.

Now you are calculating what's my mom's age, right? Hahaaa. That's what I am afraid about. I am going to turn into 21 on this upcoming November. 21 is a good number. People say it's the peak of life of individual. Whatever crazy things you wanna try, do it during this age. I agree. hahaha. But how about my mom? She is going to add up one more number in her age.

Actually I want my mom have a long life span. I want her to see me getting married with a man that can loves me and mom infinitely. I want her to see husband and me having our own children. So she can hug my children with her own hands, she can play with her grandchildren, etc hahahaha

Everything I do now I will think about mom first. I regret of my wrong doings toward mom when I was teenager. I always put her under stress, she cried because of me, she yelled at me till she got fever but I don't care because I wanna have fun with my friends.

Alhamdulillah Allah is still giving me chance to see mom again to let me do anything that I can, to give mom happiness again. Mom is such a strong woman yaw! She is still loving her own child after I have done a lot of wrong doings to her. But she loves me till now.

What I want to pinpoint here is I wanna graduate quickly, get my first job quickly, and give her my hasil titik peluh. Allah please always remind me of  this vow when the time comes.

I wanna get married with a man who is willing to take care of mom even after we get married. I mean I want mom to stay with us. I am so afraid to get married cos my heaven will not be with mom but my husband. So I must get a good husband so that I can still give loves to mom without hurting her heart at the same time to my husband too.

I want you to be proud of me mom. everything I do now is because of you. Study hard, shuttle from campus to home. Sometimes I am a bit tired. With assignments, projects, events and study time that I barely get enough time. It is okay. The more I active, the more fat I can burn! hahahahaha

My present for you for Mother's Day. The Best Academic Achievement Year 2 for faculty and college.

This is the best present I could give you. Or you have to wait for my next allowances to get you physical present! hahaha

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Self Expression

When I was in high school, mum always scold me when I was having a boyfriend. I hate my life when I was fifteen year old. Because during that time, was a peak time of my jahiliyah life! I am seriously don't wanna meet those people again that I knew in that time. It is going to be a nightmare for me if someday my future-husband is directly or indirectly related to them. I hope that will not be going to happen.

I barely updated my social networking accounts especially Twitter (and Facebook too). When I went through all history posts that I've done before, I felt like crap! Why I was really damn stupid that time? Where is my value? How can I treat anonymous-es like they were my best friends? Why I was so gedik with immature boys that time?


I want everybody knows me. What a pathetic girl I was before.

"Hi back!"
"My name is.... I live in... My age is...."

Yeyy yeyy that was kind of me before. BEFORE. If I can go back to that time to meet my old self, I'm gonna slap myself hardly for hundred times.


But now everything has changed. I feel different. To be "reborn" for someone new. My mum always ask me whether I'm now dating with someone or not. My answer is NO. Because I really not feel to have a boyfriend for this current time. Lots of dreams to catch, lots of works to be done.

Sometimes, I feel I am a bit strict and hard to get near or men are scared to come near me. Mum told me that I should be a little graceful lady so that people would be free to come near me. But I haven't tried to be such a graceful lady yet as I am not really thinking about in-a-relationship

Actually I have crush. We met accidentally. He is my friend's friend. We haven't talked much. Just met twice just because he is gonna meet his friend (which is my friend). That's why I can see him. If not because of my friend, I will not be able to meet him. But, I can feel there are some things in his inner self that could attract myself to like him crazily but in silently!

So, to shorten the story, I think I will not be able to meet him again as my relationship with my friend has faded away. So, I probably think I should start get rid of my crush from my head hahaaa

I explained everything to mum about this (about the other boys too that are currently contacting with me). But seems Mum is more likely interested with my crush. She remembered his name. Whenever I'm being at home, she will ask me about my crush. She said I should make the first step to approach him. Ya Allah... how mum how? Yes I have his number but by just having number not courage still not enough.

Wish he will accidentally read my blog (or maybe he doesn't even know I have blog). If you read this, I think you will know I'm now talking about you. Just wanna say, I like your behaviors, attitudes, kind-heart and manners you're applying to people around you. May you find happines in your life.

I think I'm going to stop typing now. Enough for today. This blog must be super super boring now yeah I know.

Goodnight peeps! xoxo

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