Tonight I felt very calm. For some reason before this I never felt like this. I heard this song makes me remember my past mistakes. Sometimes I feel I have a lot of sin I had done before. But I never got a chance to atone for my past mistakes. I tried to be a good girl. I tried to veil. But I was never serious about what I do. It always change and change. People always say, good men are only for good women. I'm afraid if one day I was in the contempt of others. Bad women are only eligible for men who are not good.