It was 3:15 a.m, and I had woken up for the 3rd time last night because the sheer anxiety and fear that was pressing my head. I tried many times to sleep back but failed. I felt like I'm an unacceptably sensitive and I just hate being this way. I wanted to be like other people who are not emotionally attached to certain things.
I will cry just to make me feel exhausted and usually, it helped me to sleep. I realized I cannot be this way. I have to stand up and find my own source of happiness - less relying onto things I loved so much. I had to figure something out, because I wanted to get back, even in my fragile emotional state.
Here are a few things I have done to get started:-
- Meditate for 5 - 10 minutes. With relaxation music and morning view of the world from your house's window, especially when you're living in high-rise the feeling will be a lot better. I suggest you listen to Intouchables (Una Mattina) by Ludovico Einaudi.
- Workout. I found this really beneficial. Workout can push the toxic out from your body. It also helps you to sleep early to get your body enough energy for the next morning.
- Be a happy pill to other's sorrow. I read Nick Vujicic's book called Live Without Limits. If you cannot get rid of your own sadness, at least you should be a happy pill to someone else's sorrow. Aren't you happy seeing someone else's happy smile because of you?
- Be grateful. List down what you have in your life - family, friends, loved ones, achievement in life. Once you have the list, you will realize that you should be grateful of what God has given you!
No matter who you are, no matter what you're going through, God knows it. He is with you. He is going to pull you through. Have faith.